Heather,
Someone is calling with extra special good news today. There is a new club opening up, they have joined a gym, or they just want to gossip. Either way, you are going to enjoy some unexpected company or good news from far away. People will seem energetic and talkative today.

My day has turned very bad. I went to see an apt. I was hoping it would be great but it wasn't. Plus right before I left to see it my boss caught me and said I need to arrange a meeting w/ him to go over the paper I'm writing, which I just thought was due March 8th w/out another meeting, so I don't have much written and don't want to have a meeting. So the apt. was in the South End but a little off of the best parts of South End, close to BU Medical Center past Mass. Ave. and Washington so I was a little sketchy about the area like at night and all. Plus the building isn't the best from the outside but a brownstone so okay. The main doors stick and were heavy, bulky and right when you enter it smells like cigarette smoke, yuck! The apt. itself was okay, high ceilings, exposed bright, 1 bedroom, tub needed a cleaning so I think because I'm not sure of the area though I could easily take the bus to work down Mass Ave. and the cigarette smell, not that my apt. smelled but I don't want to come home to that, I don't know if I could live there. It was $1200 plus I'd have to pay electric, all the heat/hot water, etc. was electric, and then cable and internet. Not sure if it's worth it. Now I have to look at a studio in Beacon Hill that's a good location and cheaper but it could be a dud too. Also I have to call my landlord and tell her what I'm doing, if I'm leaving or looking for a roommate. I think if the place I look at tonight isn't good I will post something for a roommate but tell the landlord that she can look for people too and if she finds someone before me then I'll move out for sure. Other options I guess are to give up on it all. Embrace my loserness. I guess I don't handle crap well. I shut down.

If only I had a rr to tell me what to do.

Just found out my roomies found an apt. I'm still looking. Have two places to look at today and hope the first place is the one this time. I don't think the second place is worth it so I'm really counting on the first.

This was us when we were getting along.

Maybe someday I'll do a 'my life w/ rr' post but it would take lots of time and energy. I can try though.

so the kinda short version that some of you know, i met rr in 8th grade. i moved into his neighborhood and liked him instantly when we met. we didn't go to the same middle school but we did go to the same high school. we had a little silly relationship in 9th grade, a little more serious thing maybe the summer before 10th grade, then we dated other people the rest of high school but i always ran to him when i was in trouble and it caused trouble w/ my relationship w/ ian. in 12th grade we sat next to each other in physics which was weird but okay until i went to his house one night and things got a bit out of hand and i told ian and he told rr to back off and i didn't talk to rr after that but i still had to sit next to him everyday. then one day my dad came home and said he talked to rr and he was going to the same college as me. lovely. so i did run into him in college and one time we even went out to lunch at the end of freshman year. i was still w/ ian at the time, he was still in high school and got some info that rr was a millionaire and freaked out on me that i would leave him for rr. anyway, nothing happened, i went home for the summer. sophomore year i went back to UB and ian came too so now we were all together again. ian and i broke up around the same time rr and i started running into each other more often. so basically when ian and i broke up, i got together w/ rr though he had a gf already, she got the boot. so we basically were together the next 6 years, living together, moved to boston together. we broke up a long time ago, dec 98/jan 99 and didn't speak for a bit after that but eventually we started talking again though we had some trouble because my new boy was jealous and didn't want me to see rr, though somehow everyone got over that because we all eventually hung out along w/ other boys i had after that. rr started dating jenn way back when and we met and somehow we started all hanging out and it's been that way since. i did move away for 4 years for grad school but we still kept in touch all the time then, and now the last 2 years we've lived together. so it's a long weird history and i can fill in more details some other time.

My commute is so short, yay!, that I don't get in many songs on my way but usually what I do end up listening to sticks w/ me for the day, like the songs I posted the other day, I heard those on my 15 min. commute into work.

So for today it was:

'Interesting Drug' Morrissey

'Can't Hold Us Down' Christina A and Lil Kim

'Wrong Impression' Natalie Imbruglia

'I'm a Believer' The Sheila Divine. One of my favorite all-time songs ever and my favorite Sheila song! I wanted to link to a better video of this song but there are only 3 on YouTube and mine goes right into the song so I'm using it again. It's not the best but it is mine.

Enjoy the music!

"I can't stop the music"