Pre-weekend started off okay w/ me getting my butt back to track for the first time since before Australia, end of March! Though I was late and barely did much of the workout, it was great to be back on the track w/ Tara and Jake. Too bad I had to take the next 2 weeks off because I was in Bar Harbor.

So Friday July 11th was Joslynn's 24th birthday and she mapped out a pub crawl from Central to Harvard complete w/ 80s theme! I've already showed some pics from the night but I'll post a little more and link to Johnny's little video, that I did hear he wasn't too thrilled about after the fact, sorry Johnny!

I ended up at the crawl late because I had to hit the mall first for my 80s outfit and then home to run a few miles before showering up and getting decked out in my blue eyeshadow, plus it started pretty early. Finally made it and lasted the rest of the night. Didn't get too crazy luckily.

Took Cleo to get her bath at Hotel Marlowe on Saturday which she was great about. Stood there perfectly, venturing to her happy place so she could take it, while they soaped her up and rinsed her off. Only got one picture because I forgot to charge up the camera battery after the pub crawl the night before.

Yes I know I've been bad as usual w/ the weekend recaps. They take so much work. Yes rr, smaller more frequent posts would be better than no posts but anyway I will try a bit tonight to get caught up.

So going back to the Fourth of July weekend. I was real excited to go to the Pops rehearsal after work that Thursday the 3rd but as me, db and beaky were walking there it started pouring and so we never made it. Not even sure if the rehearsal even happened anyway w/ the storm. Oh well, missed the Rascal Flatts, yuck :0)

Friday the Fourth db and i hung out around Faneuil Hall/Quincy Market eating bad food. Check out this lovely video of db playing in the fountains at the North End Parks across from Hanover St.

That night went w/ beaky and db to a barbecue at db's friend's house. stayed for a bit watching them play cards then headed to tara's new apt. near davis to meet up w/ all the girls. we hit a bar in davis for a little bit, it was dead, then drove down mass ave. to get closer to the fireworks. on the way, we were driving next to a boy in a convertible bmw that db asked if he wanted to take some of the girls in our car, we had 4 people in the back, too crowded, this boy was a bit shy and seemed a little uptight.

a couple lights later we convinced jos to get in his car. they drove behind us for a bit and then jos gave her number and got back in our car. (they have since gone out a couple times but i don't think he's turning out to be the one, though they did have good stuff in common) we eventually made it to main st. in kendall to watch fireworks. beaky was w/ us and freaking out real bad the whole time.

i hope to never bring her to fireworks again. i thought it would be better than leaving her home alone. after fireworks went to move the car and meet the girls at a bar but w/ the traffic after the fireworks it was a nightmare and just ended up going home.

had to work the weekend, primary rounds both sat. and sun. i was also my own backup. it was a last minute decision because the girl that was supposed to do it had left the dpt. for grad school and no one was paying attention to assign someone else to her duties. i decided to take it because they offered me no weekend primary duties for the next year. sweet deal! hope they don't renig.

sunday night after work went to jake and danny's new apt. they actually live in the condos where i used to live w/ rr when i first moved to boston in brighton. we had wonderful watermelon martinis and i brought some yummy stuff from trader joe's to eat.

So this weekend I was supposed to go somewhere out of town w/ db because it was my only weekend that I'm not on some kind of call at work. We didn't have a good plan so while we did get out of town, it wasn't what I expected. I saw on Friday that Natasha Bedingfield was playing at Hampton Beach Casino on Sunday night in NH so wanted to go. I asked db if we could go, he said yes (points!) and i got the tickets. i should have checked first if she was playing in boston but i was too focused on the sunday show so after getting those tickets i saw she was playing the paradise this tuesday, i'd rather see her there, but when i looked for tickets none were available so i didn't have to feel bad for getting tickets for sunday. it would be something different at least. never seen a show at hampton beach casino.

i'm already forgetting how things went. i met db at my place after work on friday. hadn't seen him in a week so was happy to see him again. we ended up waiting until real late to eat dinner so didn't have lots of choice. took beaky-woo and walked over to shangri-la since they're open until 2. got some yucky fried food for myself and db's spicy stuff. met some weathered but lovely people while waiting outside for the food. beaky is always the conversation starter. we ate our food on the bench in front of the fire station on cambridge st while people watching. then to cvs for candy. got wildly cherry m&ms, not a big fan usually but these were limited edition or something and on sale so i thought i'd try them, and some sour patch kids, and 2L diet cokes were b1g1, perfect! made it home feeling yucky after the food and then bed.

saturday was a really hot nice day but didn't get out until the afternoon. took beaky running while db rollerbladed. she was exhausted to do 3 miles in the heat and i was dying after my 7 miles. it was tough! at least i had db's butt to keep me going. i was totally drained after that but managed to clean up and take a walk down near the pru. we stopped in lord n taylor so i could try on some expensive dresses. found a great nicole miller but $400+ was well out of my budget unfortunately. looked for it online elsewhere but no success at all. went to lir for a beer and more fried stuff, just fries for me. what happened to the usual bartenders?? not a good food day, especially after running 7 miles in that heat but i would make up for it on sunday. after lir walked back to the common and sat for a bit then home and eventually to bed.

sunday morning got to go to the paramount. db's first time. it was good but not great. i made the mistake of getting a cheese omelet since i hadn't tried one yet but your money is better spent on the pancakes or belgian waffles. that's two times in a row now i've screwed up. after the paramount we headed up to nh w/ beaky-woo, the weather was now crappy and rainy. we hung out w/ cb watching the red sox, eating more fried food: fish n chips, ice cream: cotton candy and fluffernutter flavors for me, blah! yes i felt sick, db warned us but it seemed like the right thing to do. after a little nap on cb's couch and the red sox winning in extra innings, boo! we left for the concert. made it there w/ time to spare, missed the opening band but i wanted to anyway, had time to find parking, get cleo to poop and have a drink before natasha came out. i didn't expect much from the show since it was in a bad location and i usually don't go to pop shows like this but i do love both her cds so it couldn't be that bad i figured. she sounded great and it was lots of fun. i would still like to see her at the paradise though since it's more intimate. made the drive home from nh, beaky stayed in the car for the show, we got more food on the way home and then to bed too late for a work night as usual. i'm tired. db took some videos from the show. i'll have to post one if he gives me.

i think friday night was similar to others, went w/ cleo to rr/j's. very foggy memory though. did we eat hot dogs and fries that night? what tv did we watch? oh, there was game 6 of basketball. anything else we watched? guess i'm useless for recounting the details of last friday night.

got up saturday morning around 8. watched some shows on my laptop, dad called at 11, he was stuck in traffic in the city. wow! i didn't expect him so soon. i'm still in bed. not ready. finally he made it to my place. he drives a big truck so beaky and i went downstairs to navigate him to the boston common garage where the truck would stay until he left sunday morning. dad came into my place, got the 5 second tour of the studio. made him wait for me while i showered and got ready for the day.

we decided to go eat something and figure out what to do. dad chatted w/ my mail lady about letter carrying in boston. he does this all the time since he's a letter carrier himself. not as much mail as there used to be, cutting routes all over the place: that was the story they were chatting about.

went to the globe on boylston for lunch. sat at the bar. the bartender was not so good but my turkey panini was good and dad seemed to like the reuben. i had a stella and dad had a couple sams: one seasonal 'cause the guy screwed up and a lager since he didn't like the seasonal. also ran into jake's bf danny there so my dad got to meet a gay guy :0)

we decided to go to fenway. dad hadn't been in years and since the yankees weren't in town he thought he'd enjoy it more not rooting for a team, just hoping the red sox lost. we scalped tickets from one of the usual guys and of course we ended up behind a pole. $45 tickets for $80 each. good thing it was dad's money. got there early and just relaxed in our 1930s seats. had some beer, peanuts and diet coke. at one point dad said '90% of these peanuts are empty.' and i said 'that's because i keep putting my empty shells in the bag :0)' i was trying not to make a mess but dad was just grabbing out my empties and throwing them on the ground mad there were no peanuts in them. he thought that was funny. so i started making a mess on the ground so dad could have some peanuts too.

the game was pretty good. red sox played well and brewers were hitting well but not scoring. i think the red sox won by 2 but that was just the first game of the doubleheader. i think the red sox won the second game too, by 1 maybe.

after the game we walked back to my place and took care of cleo. then we headed to the paramount for dinner. it was close to 10 i think by the time we got there. i got the usual steak tips, i'm not a big meat eater or steak person but these are real good plus they come w/ great mashed potatoes, green beans and onion rings. i also got dessert, some chocolate cake that dad loved!

we were going to head to the beacon hill pub but we were tired so went home to bed. dad slept on my floor on top of my thin mattress pad w/ blankets and a beaky until 8 sunday morning.

sunday morning we took the cleo out for a bit and then headed back to the paramount for breakfast. breakfast there is usually yummy. this time mine was only okay. i think because i got eggs instead of pancakes or a waffle. i should stick w/ those things or maybe try an omelet. i got to get the strawberry milkshake though. i wanted it the previous weekend but it's $6 so since it was dad's money...

after breakfast got dad's truck outta the garage and then to my place to get the rest of his things then he took off. a very quick trip but enough for us and we had a good time.

spent the rest of sunday cleaning up, laundry, phone calls, etc. db showed up that night and we went to the milky way to celebrate raelee's graduation. don't get to see her that much, especially when not running, so just great to hang out and talk about other things.

back to work on monday

Yes I know, I've been so bad w/ this lately. I've gotten too comfortable in my current situation. I don't even wear makeup to work anymore. What's happened to me? So as usual, when I put things off for so long, I don't remember all the details but I'll try real hard.

Friday night was supposed to be girls night out I guess w/ at least T and B. db was in town so I warned him that he wasn't allowed but maybe I could meet up w/ him later. Just before leaving work T said she wasn't sure if she was going out so instead of waiting around to hear from her yes or no I told db we could just plan on going out and meeting up w/ whatever friends of mine went out. T texted later to say she was going out and when i mentioned db was going she wasn't too cool about it, even though was iffy w/ the plans to begin w/. jos texted to say she would let me know when she headed to gypsy bar. that never happened. db and i were waiting at home to hear, watching tv shows online, when finally jos texted to say she'd been there an hour. so we meet them there. it was meghan's bday, i ran into her first and then she got me w/ the rest of the girls. i was giving hugs around when i started getting attitude from T. we had been on weird terms since the marathon that i backed out of that she did, and it was her first marathon, so we were having issues. things didn't go so well w/ the friends that night, plenty of drama and bitchiness so db and i just danced together w/out them. i tried to have fun but it was difficult.

saturday db hitched a ride to maine before we could eat at the paramount. i really wanted a good breakfast! i was going to go there alone when i called rr/j and they said they'd eat w/ me there on sunday so i met them at bruegger's and ate an egg and cheese bagel sandwich and muffin. not so good but food at least. then jenn had to go hang w/ friends so rr and i hung out together. we made a stop at trader joe's so i could get some food for a change. it was a good trip. i'll have to start going more often. then i went home to take care of cleo and then we both went to rr/j apt. for saturday night. i think it was the usual tv/sports, dinner and i was going to finally get back on track w/ backing up my laptop and gazillion gigs of music. in the process of this my external hd w/ all my music and photos died and i lost most of my music. at the time i was sleeping on the floor and rr was getting mad at me for not saying anything but i was so tired i couldn't really have a reaction. too the train home to deal w/ it the next day.

i had to contact apple on sunday to tell them what happened to see if they'd be nice and let me download all the music i'd bought from them over the years. luckily they did and good thing because it was about $2000 worth of music. then i had to get the rest of the music from rr/j because we had shared music for awhile. i won't have everything but most things. i have already screwed up organizing everything and deleted some of the stuff i just re-downloaded from apple so i'll have to buy it again. unfortunately i know i did this w/ my most recent natasha b. and that sucks!

i was walking cleo around the common sunday morning talking to my mom on mother's day when i ran into rr/j sitting in the common. 'funny to see you retards here!' we ended up putting beaky away and heading to the paramount. the wait wasn't so bad but still a crowded, uncomfortable wait. luckily the blueberry pancakes, sausage and fresh fruit was good good. then we walked to cambridgeside where i returned some stuff to petco and had silly conversations w/ rr/j in border's. i left alone to do some more errands, picked up some new towels at macy's. went home to do laundry and later that night met db out for dinner at the middle east. had the tofu couscous. it was yum except for the spicy crap in the corner of the plate.

so that was pretty much my weekend. finally found some Fun Dip, they have good stuff at fanueil hall but it's expensive and db was good and finally got me some whipped cream to make up for the cool whip he got the last time. sugar is good!

last recap i thought there was a good chance i was getting evicted or moving then db showed up. he stayed for a few days hanging out w/ cleo while i was at work doing all sorts of stuff w/ her and bringing her everywhere he went. so i had a stress-free time and then i had to get to work at 6 on friday so db took her to maine thurs-sat so again i had more stress-free time do whatever. friday i had a long day at work getting there at 6 to help w/ a lab and then i did a bunch of molecular work that gave me good results so i was happy. i took a break while my pcr was running to head to the muddy for some beer. a bunch of co-workers were there because it was someone's last day. one guy was pretty inapporiate w/ me, never been around him outside of work, just saying all this stuff about how he's wanted me since the first day we met which was almost 2 years ago. i was waiting for pcr to finish and it was running late, i was supposed to get to rr and jenn's by 8:15 for pizza hut and celtics. luckily i had a reason to leave the muddy. they tried to make me stay but got away and took care of my samples and caught the #1 bus real quick to get close to rr/j in the fenway. ate so much pizza at their place and watched the game but we always end up talking a lot too about other stuff and lose track of what's happening. plus i was real tired and i think we were falling asleep at the end even though it wasn't that late. unfortunately i left when the red sox game got out so i was crowded on a train smushed into people that decided to smush me and i felt really sick from eating too much so i wasn't sure i'd get home w/out puking on the bitches. by that point i was more awake so i think watched stuff online before bed.

saturday got up in the morning and went to work to do some stuff. then to cambridgeside for some shopping. got plenty of candles. i like to make my place smelly w/ candles. then went home to hang out and wait for my beaky to get home. thought i was going out w/ db and co. that night but then db showed up for a bit and to use my shower and then tell me, only after i asked, that i was not going, no ticket for the show. then i was mad and he left for show. he called after and picked me up to go to redline for an hour or so so i did get to go out a little. i guess i was still mad but wanted to go out. cleo hung out in the car so i didn't have to leave her so late in the apt. music was good and dancing w/ db was fun but too short. i could have stayed there forever just dancing. got home and started the breaking up w/ db but it was the middle of the night so didn't really end but in the morning db took off to go w/ friends and he was supposed to buy me another shock collar for cleo because he forgot to bring the original one back from maine, but he kept calling to say he was doing something else and he'd get the collar after.

so i was stuck waiting for him all day because i couldn't leave cleo w/out the collar. and of course i was pissed that he knew we were in the middle of breaking up and then just taking off and avoiding me all day, over and over and over. by the time he showed up i was real mad and we had a big fight but i was drunk i guess and don't remember everything that happened, i don't know what i said, and what the reply was, but he was still there monday morning and no one was mad so we're still together and maybe we can have the same fight again when i'm sober and have a few drinks in me :0)

so the best news is that the shock collar is keeping cleo quiet, i think it's finally the answer i was looking at. now hopefully i can get back to a normal life and eventually she'll be quiet w/out the collar.

Tara ran her first marathon on Sat. in Providence and ran sub-4hrs!! Yay Tara!!!!!

This recap is going all the way back to the weekend starting March 28th. I never got to write anything about it because things were so crazy. I had been officially in my new place for about a week, my week at work was very crazy and I was trying to prepare myself to leave for Australia on April 2, plus I had a 20 mile race to conquer.

So Friday night Tara and Jos came over to see my new place and drink some before heading out dancing. So they came over and brought plenty of alcohol (the scene I found the next day)

and we preceded to get a bit tipsy. I was supposed to bring Cleo back to my old apt. so my roomies could watch her while I went out but I was feeling too silly and thought it would be okay to leave her. This would be the first time ever leaving her all alone in this place, and it was kinda late.

Proceeded to go to The Estate and meet up w/ Kinna and her little brother. He didn't really want to go dancing but we convinced him. $20 to get in, geez, I don't even know who was there that night or remember the music. Had plenty more drinks and then remember being in the bathroom upstairs alone puking in the trash can by the sinks out in the open. Good thing no one was in there. Then I went back downstairs and somehow ran into T who was buying me another drink though at the site of it I felt so yucky I just left it there. Next thing I know little brother had me out on the dance floor. Hey, I thought you don't like to dance? I remember, haha I keep saying I remember, he kept asking me when I finish school or something and I kept telling him I was 33 and a doctor but I guess he wasn't getting it, I even showed him my license but he kept asking me that silly question. He was a senior in college and 21. We stayed til close and then all walked back to my place where I found a note from some neighbor that said

"Your dog has been crying since 10:40pm (guess that's when we left :0) Please do not allow this to happen again!!"

and I also had a voicemail from the concierge saying a neighbor complained and to come home and take care of it but since my phone was in Jos' purse all night I didn't get the message until we got home. Oops! Major mistake by me!!!

So eventually Kinna and little brother left and Jos crashed w/ me on my little bed w/ Cleo. Next morning Jos realized she lost all her stuff, luckily I think she had left it at the Estate and got it back later. I took Cleo to old apt. and made it to Cambridgeside for a haircut and lots of shopping for my trip. Must of had a kinda low-key night. Maybe I spent it at old apt, not sure and then had my big race Sunday morning, the Eastern States 20 miler.

Got up early Sunday morning to get ready and get Cleo to old apt. Jake and Tara picked me up there and then off to the race. We had to park at this Casino in NH I think and then take a bus to the start. Our bus driver got lost so the trip took twice as long as should have. Then we waited around at this school for the start and talked lots about our pooping issues for that morning :0) usual runner speak I guess. Finally race started. We had 20 miles and 3 states to get through. I wanted to start out conservatively so let Jake and Tara go ahead. Eventually I picked up my pace and caught up w/ them around mile 17 and then Tara and I kicked it w/ whatever we had left. Finished pretty strong and was happy w/ my race.

403 out of 590 overall
59 out of 90 age group
3:11:49 for 20 miles
9:36 minutes per mile

Was sick the rest of the day and couldn't really keep any food in but I tried. We ate at the postrace party and stopped at a restaurant on the way home. By Monday though I was okay. Ready for Australia on Tuesday!

I'd like some kind of peace when I spend most of my weekend at home w/ you guys.

I basically decided that until my vacation beginning of April I'm not going to go out so I can get more work done, or at least be in a state to get more work done, regardless if I actually do, and maybe in the process I'll save some money too.

Friday night I was going to stay at work late but it was a crazy week w/ the boss on my butt all week and then everyone else in the office left by 5 so I think I took off at 5:30. Cleo and I did 3 miles then I hung out at home. Oh, I cooked stuff which for me is crazy. I made a trip to Whole Foods and actually bought stuff. I cooked up a ton of carrots, and baked some butternut squash and made myself a burger w/ my $18/lb. Spanish goat milk cheese. Forget what else I really did, some x-training in my room and watching TV.

Got up Saturday morning with plans to go to work most of the day. Wanted to get some laundry done first though. Did a bunch of laundry, so many trips, can't wait for my new place and laundry on my floor!, though I don't know if they have front-loaders like the laundromat. I hate top-loaders!!!!! Laundry took forever and it was raining the whole time. By the time I was done I just didn't feel like going outside anymore. Didn't make it to work. Just did stuff, what I don't really remember, oh, catch up on 'Lost' and watched 'Monsoon Wedding.' I've been to one Indian wedding. It was crazy and lots of fun! My friend Sham had an arranged marriage basically, he's a smarty engineer and she's a pediatrician. Haven't seen them in awhile but last time I did they had a little baby. Not sure what's happened since. They live in Boston but we don't keep in touch.

Made a spaghetti dinner last night because I had a big race today. Made whole wheat pasta w/ spinach, sliced almonds, cranberries and my Spanish cheese grated. Didn't have a sauce so it was kinda dry but good anyway. Wanted to go to bed early because I had to rest for the race but didn't fall asleep until about 1:30 and then took the dog out around 3:30 and then had to get up at 7:45 but forgot about daylight savings so luckily Tara texted me at 6:45 which was now 7:45 so I lost an hour of sleep there. I was pissed! Didn't sleep much or well last night. Got up for the run, met Tara and Jos at Central. It was fucking crazy windy out!!!! Got to the race in Beverly w/ plenty of time. Somehow they lost my race packet and number so they had to give me a new number but I paid extra for a shirt and they said I could get it later. I guess I have to contact them about it. Race started at 10am. It was a 30K (18.6 miles). One of the draws for this race is it's only $10. But that means just water on the course, and I didn't get any after about mile 14 because there was either no water or no cups for the water. Some parts of the race were so fucking windy, I couldn't believe this was for real and I still had 10 miles or 9 miles or 8 miles, etc. to go, I could barely push through the wind. I was doing okay most of the race, not pushing too hard and staying under 10 min miles. I wanted to break 3 hrs but I must have really slowed down the last couple miles because I finished about 3 hrs 4 minutes. Still sub-10 min/mile pace which is fine w/ me for 18.6 miles. Jos ended up getting injured during the race. She finished but sprained her knee so we took off real quick to get her home, though we stopped at Spuds for some food, this random place in some town outside Boston w/ all old people inside. We got some food and a good rest before getting Jos back home. Now I'm home and very tired and had a nap for about 15 min. Why I woke up so quickly not sure. I feel hungry again too. Returned a bunch of phone calls but no one is home so they'll all call me sometime later when I'm really exhausted and don't want to talk.

Okay, I'm starting my extended Holiday weekend recap early while I wait for my laundry.

Friday night I left work a little early, everyone else in the postdoc office had gone already. I went home to take care of the dogs and then went back to Kendall to meet Jos at work and walk to the Garment District. we wanted to get stuff for our 80s themed long run saturday morning. so i got some sunglasses, bracelets, sweatband and then 2 real shirts, not 80s stuff but i did end up wearing the orange shirt w/ axes to the 80s run just because it was orange and matched my sunglasses. everything there was 50% off so i got 2 $30 shirts for $15 each which is a great deal so not only did i get stuff for the run but i got real stuff too.

after garment district we met meghan at the asgard for dinner before the vagina monologues at MIT. while at dinner the waiter spilled joslynn's tartar sauce and coleslaw all over her and the floor. very ackward! maybe 15 minutes later another guy dropped a dish right behind me and a big piece of it hit me in the back. hello! did we do something? are we making you nervous? anyway, we got our wine for free. we would have gotten another round for free but we had to get to the vagina monologues.

went to the vagina monologues at MIT. sat in the second or third row. it was my first time. my stomach was making really loud noises and i felt bad because it was REALLY LOUD. but i was getting my period and had bad cramps. i apologized to meghan at the end because i was sitting next to her. she said she could try to lie and say she didn't hear but it'd be too obvious she was lying, she heard. all that talk about vaginas really made me want to have sex :0( it was mostly funny but very sad too. not that i love my vagina, nowhere near, i hate it more than anything else but i feel like i'm at least more in touch w/ it than the stories in the vagina monologues. we were supposed to meet rachel there but we totally forgot and just sat down w/out looking for her. i didn't remember until halfway thru the show when i leaned to jos and said something about forgetting rachel and we laughed a bit. saw her at the end; luckily she was w/ other people. believe it or not but we went home after, made it an early night. had to get up early for the long run. got home and talked to db for a little, he was in san fran which reminded me that i didn't actually call naomi and wish her a happy bday (she lives in san fran). so i called her, it was still friday her time and we talked until 2:30 my time. went to bed until 7:30 when i got up for the long run.

put on my 80s stuff, blue eye shadow, side ponytail and took the t to central. not sure if people thought i was crazy or not. the run was kinda fun actually, as fun as a 14 mile run can be in a windchill of 8 degrees. the hosts planned a route all over boston so we could look like weirdos all over town. after 2 hrs 20 min were back at damian and justin's and got to eat some french toast and drink kool-aid and tang and listen to 80s music. stayed for a bit and then took off. i was freezing and needed a shower. after my shower i was going to do laundry but didn't have enough money so instead started watching '10 things i hate about you.' so it was supposed to be a good movie and i'd never seen it and then heath died so like everyone else i put it at the top of my netflix queue and it said long wait but lucky for me it wasn't a long wait for me. didn't get through it all yesterday. ended up going to the south end for a play, 'Speed the Plow.' jake's bf's theater company was performing it so i wanted to go and represent. tara and chris went too along w/ ban and michael. after the play we went to boston beer works where i tried to calorie load after my 14 miles. i hadn't really eaten much all day so had cheeseburger, o-rings and a beer. after dinner we hit the cask. when i was in undergrad the cask was my hangout. loved it there! then they redid it and made it huge and ridiculous so now it's not what it used to be. the music wasn't so bad so it was fun but i wasn't drinking so it wasn't as fun as it could have been plus i had my period and i wasn't prepared for the flow. yuck! got to talk to db when i got home, that was good and bad. went to bed around 4am.

got up about 11am on sunday. for some reason decided to make myself scrambled eggs and toast. burned the scrambled eggs because i'm addicted to my laptop but they still tasted fine. finished watching '10 things i hate about you.' went to the atm to deposit a check and get cash for laundry, went to whole foods and cvs. haven't been to whole foods in a long time. hate food shopping. never know what to get. i don't think it's important enough to spend money on food. so i got lots of randomness: skim milk, Ciao Bella sorbetto!, lowfat chocolate milk, peanut butter, Kozy Shack rice pudding!, supersweet frozen corn, Bolthouse Berry Smoothie!, fresh carrots, bananas, cheddar, snow cone cookies!, and ciabatta bread.

the skim milk most likely will get thrown out unopened when it expires, bananas will get thrown in the freezer when they turn brown, bread will get moldy, sorbetto will get freezer burn, maybe the other stuff will get eaten. i just wanted to make the carrots. i love cooked carrots, used to hate them! asked db for help. i know it's silly to need help to cook carrots but i've never done it before. boiled them and then added olivio and honey because i didn't have brown sugar. they were real good! while i was making the carrots i started drinking wine. i wanted to cut back on the alcohol because it's been causing some problems but i needed it today. ended up drinking the whole bottle. helped me to do my laundry. ended up getting lots of laundry done, drunk i guess is good for some things, but i did forget my keys and was locked out until a nice English girl let me in after i started buzzing all the apts. in my building until she answered and then came down to physically let me in and see i wasn't a crazy person, fooled her! guess i needed a day to myself so i don't forget what a loser i am. lots of crying today and wallowing. fun fun!

can't wait until tomorrow

so it's monday and i have the day off. got up around 11am. talked to tara who got me to get out the door asap and go running. did my 7 miles. it wasn't pretty, my body felt slow, but it was for some reason 63 degrees so i can't complain. had just enough time to shower and get to the movie theater to meet mark. we saw 'step up 2,' yay! the dialogue was cheesy but the dancing was pretty good. the soundtrack could have been better but there were some good songs. then we went to BHP about 4:30 and stayed until 11. syracuse played on espn at 7 against louisville and it was on at the BHP so i had to stay. mark got to see my obnoxious self watching an su game though i was very tame this time. su lost unfortunately. didn't make it to joslynn's dinner party. sorry jos i already had plans w/ mark and didn't want to ditch. thanks mark for a fun day!! and all your advice :0)

now i'm home and back to my silly cry baby self. what is wrong w/ me?

I'm very exhausted right now. My 13 miles in the blizzard, not blizzard, blizzard was very draining but I'll try my best while I wait for the last Grey's Anatomy episode to download from iTunes, why's it taking so long and how did I miss this episode, I hate having to buy it when it was online for free at some point.

Friday I had to go to a conference all day in Waltham. That meant I had to take the T to MIT as usual, then pick up the work van to drive out to Waltham. It wasn't so bad but I never drive so I hate it, especially when I have to drive something big just to transport me, and it had snowed some that morning. Conference was okay, food was great and I got to see some people I've met previously. I know I'm supposed to appreciate the networking thing, especially when I'm done w/ my program and need a real job, but I absolutely hate it and suck at it! Made it back to MIT around 6 and was checking email and planning a very boring, rest-up weekend when Jos called.

Uh oh! Can't say No to dinner at the sevens and beers at bhp. met her at sevens after quick going home to change and she was w/ val and val's roomies. had a fine dinner, turkey wrap w/ potato salad and 2 stellas. jos was staying w/ me to finish my beer and head to the atm, val and roomies were meeting us at bhp but on their way out val started talking to this guy and at some point introduced jos and i when he started telling me he had seen me earlier and wanted to talk to me, blah, blah, blah. we soon left, hit the atm then bhp. val and roomies were not there. turns out roomies went home and val ditched. never heard from her again. lucky us, this guy from the sevens comes to bother us, mostly me, at the bhp. he said and did lots of cheesy things, even calling his phone w/ my cell, asking me about my current boyfriend and then describing himself, asking what my roommates will do when i bring him home, etc. eventually we started talking to a seemingly harmless doctor on the other side of jos which pissed off 'my current boyfriend', yay! my plan worked, and he took off. doctor man talked to us the rest of the night, buying us beers, very bad! because jos had to run long in the morning. she left to catch the train and doctor man walked me home. i thought he was very harmless until he stole a kiss on the check. could have been worse i guess but i wasn't offering and he didn't ask. found out later jos lost atm card, t pass and didn't make the run. sorry! i don't want to be a bad influence, but she did ask me to go out :0) guess we should have left by 11, our original plan. got to talk to db when i got home and complain about my night. unfortunately i usually only remember bits and pieces of our conversations because i mostly talk to him when i've been drinking. that's not good.

had to get up on saturday morning for snowshoeing. i didn't sleep well friday night and woke up feeling kinda sick. wished i didn't have to get up but glad i did. good thing i had time to shower. kate picked me up in a zipcar, neither of us have cars and no one was going from boston. we went out to weston and met 5 other girls from TE and went snowshoeing. more snow would have been better but at least there was snow. it was a fun time and i was tired by the time i got home. i had so much laundry to do and i was so tired so i just did it right away when i got home so i wouldn't fall asleep. i was too tired to do multiple loads so i still have lots left to do. i love doing laundry but i hate having to go to the laundromat so it ends up piling up. hopefully my new apt. has laundry in it! after laundry i think i napped a little bit. i finally finished watching 'The Da Vinci Code' and 'Saw IV.' Both movies took me multiple sittings to get through for some reason. Not very good I guess. Then finally I had time to catch up on the latest season of Lost. I haven't been watching because I have track on Thurs. but I can catch it online. I don't want to like the show anymore but after watching all the latest episodes yesterday and today, I'm again hooked! Tara called last night at 10:30 to hang out w/ her and Chris. I hated saying No because of course I want to hang out w/ them but it was already kinda late and I wasn't ready to go out so it would have taken some effort. I declined and watched Lost until just after 1am when I couldn't stay awake any longer.

Slept good last night, until after 10am. Chatted w/ db for quite awhile until Tara called to go running. we had to do 13 miles, ugh! so we got all ready to go, i took cleo out real quick, called tara to say i was leaving to meet her, we meet in the middle, 3 miles to bu bridge, and she says it's snowing and stuff. i say no way! i was just outside and nothing. i look out the window and nothing. so we leave, i leave the house, and it's snowing and really windy like a blizzard. i run back in real quick to see if tara called to say it's too bad out but she hadn't so i just left her a message in case she did and took my phone. it was so crappy for the first mile or so but then it stopped snowing and cleared up. by the time we met each other we were too hot and the conditions were fine. i started to feel crappy sooner than usual today on the run. not sure why. snowshoeing yesterday, not enough energy? so it sucked! especially having to run over heartbreak hill. we are silly and run on the boston marathon course. so we're on our way back, maybe 2 miles to go and the blizzard starts again complete w/ thunder. we were trekking up heartbreak hill in the crazy snow, wind and thunder. we made it eventually and by the time we hit tara's apt. it had cleared up again. weirdest weather on a run, maybe not ever, that would probably go to some of my runs in kansas, but still weird.

chilled at tara's, literally, i started shaking because i was cold, so showered up at tara's, got all clean and made it over to s&s. since we had just burned about 1300 calories and only eaten maybe 300 so far, and it was about 5pm, we had big thoughts about eating lots of food. we tried. we had hummus for appetizer but didn't finish it. then i had scrambled eggs w/ toast, homefries, sausage, and fruit. i ate most of it and we hung around talking for awhile. long enough that on the way home i said i wasn't full anymore and tara said the same. i was kinda hungry again. never ate anything else when i got home, now it's 10:30 so what's the point? as we were driving down broadway in kendall sq. we hit some ice and lost control of the car. there was a red light ahead w/ 2 cars in front of us. we slide into the right lane, good thing no one was there, and somehow we eventually stopped right before hitting the car in front. it was so weird, like slow motion, just sitting there bracing for impact, not saying anything. good thing it turned out okay. close one.

so i got home about 8. finally talked to my mom to wish happy birthday. she got 2 calls from alzheimer's grandma, haha! then i finished watching Lost and now I have Grey's Anatomy if I can stay awake.

It’s already Tuesday and no Weekend Recap. Sorry for the lateness but I’m trying not to write it at work, though I am right now :0(

Feels like all I do now is run, eat and drink and not necessarily in that order, and eating gets left out most, and drinking is usually alcohol, not water or Gatorade, maybe some Diet Coke.

I just finished up week 3 of 16 for marathon training and though I thought I was building miles slowly I’m already up to 31 miles last week and that was a step down week. I’m already feeling exhausted!

Thursday night had track and did a good 1000s workout. Met at The Asgard after for some food, half a turkey burger and some mashed potatoes, 2 beers, and 2 Diet Cokes. Had my last sleepover w/ db, he went away for awhile.

Friday night was originally meeting Tara at Venu but I got there way before her, she was running late and having trouble getting a cab there. I met this guy on the street w/ a handful of change. He wanted 2 dollars for his change but I didn’t want his change so I was just going to give him $2 but I only had $1 so I gave it to him and said I didn’t want his change. Then a policeman came up to us and asked what was going on and I said it was fine and explained the deal but then another one showed up and they were all suspicious. They wanted to see what was in the guy’s hand and he opened it to show a shitload of change. They let me go away but wanted the guy to go w/ them. I then walked over to Remington’s for a beer to wait for Tara. Ended up sitting between a woman and a man that were playing Keno and scratch tickets. The guy ended up talking to me, telling me his life story basically. He would scratch his tickets and ask me if they were winners. The first ticket he showed me he won $5. Then he had another winner and waited until the end to scratch off the amount he won. He made me do it so I scratched it off to find $40. He thought I was lucky. Finally Tara made it and he gave up his seat for her. We changed our plan to Gypsy Bar, it was right next door, and we even got Joslynn to bail what she was doing to come. This place was way too crowded. Ran into a co-worker when Tara asked her where the coat check was. She came up to me later in the coat check line to say another girl that used to work w/ us that is now in vet school was there but I never ran into them again. Got drinks somehow, it was hard to get to the bar. Tried to dance on the dancefloor but it was ridiculous. Ended up finding space off the dancefloor where there was a seating area. It was like our own dancefloor so it worked out fine. Music was pretty good and we danced awhile. Joslynn ended up leaving w/out telling us, until she was home. Left just before closing I think and walked home alone. Kinda scary but I made it okay.

Didn’t sleep well. Keeps happening lately. Basically got up and chilled for a bit before Tara and I met to go running. We ended up doing 8 miles to get it out of the way so we didn’t have to do it on Sunday. We went to S&S for brunch afterwards. I haven’t been there in so long, it was very yummy!! Made it home just in time to do some laundry. I wanted a nap so bad but had to meet co-worker Steve at 8 at MIT so I was running out of time. I think I was on time meeting him but he was late so I got to talk to Jen in Maine for a little bit, which reminds me I’m supposed to ask the roomies if she can stay over in a few weeks. Steve finally came and we walked over to the Middle East. I had dinner while he sat there having beer, I had beer too, he wasn’t feeling great so didn’t want to eat. We were there until just after 10 and then walked over to the Middle East downstairs to see other co-worker Nate’s band Scamper, their last show. While we were standing outside so Steve could smoke, we heard the show was sold-out but when we went in to check it wasn’t. We got there just in time to see Nate and his band on stage singing w/ one of the openers. They were almost done, then another band, then Scamper. Lots of my co-workers were there but it was a weird vibe for me. I’m good w/ some of them one-on-one but some of them I never talk to and they hang out a lot so I felt out of place. They started doing shots, I thought I wasn’t gonna drink much, but I had a couple shots along w/ my beers. Eventually